Brother of Sgt. Kirkland: 'Army mental health care is a joke'
Army veteran speaks out about the death of his brother
Sgt. Derrick Kirkland lost his life to suicide on March 19, 2010 after criminally neglegent mental health care from the Army. Fellow soldiers and family members have launched a campaign to hold those responsible accountable.
The following is an interview with Derrick Kirkland’s younger brother, Jeremiah, who was also in the U.S. Army and is a member of March Forward!.
Jeremiah Kirkland was an infantryman in the 1st Battalion, 327th Infantry Regiment of the 101st Airborne Division.
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March Forward!: What led you to join the Army in the first place?
Jeremiah Kirkland: I was 16 years old and my girlfriend, who is now my wife, just got pregnant. I moved in with my brother, got my GED, and once I got that joined the Army. Basically there’s no way you can make it with a kid at 17 with a GED-level education.
What did you notice about Derrick after he got home from his first deployment?
Well, the first big noticeable thing was, me and my brother growing up were always joking around and everything. He got back and was quiet and reserved. He had a penchant for—not bragging—but explaining his experiences a little bit, showing us pictures of random dead people. I talked to him about it and said he just couldn’t get rid of the pictures. I don’t know, it was just with him, you could tell. Before that he was really close with his wife, even during his deployment, but when I lived with him subsequently I had never seen them happy around each other. He started drinking a whole bunch. Growing up I’ve seen him through hard points in life and he’s always bounced back from them, but after this he never bounced back.
Do you know what it was that affected him?
He was just a good person, full of compassion; and he didn’t know how to deal with killing people. Some of the pictures he showed me, there was one guy all shot up, at least seven times, one through the face. He’s going through all these pictures and saying “this is what I did.”
Did he express to you that he wasn’t okay?
Oh yeah. The one big one was, apparently a guy got shot up and his squad leader told him to stand on the dude’s chest until he bled out. That really was the big one for him. It was the one he talked about the most. At the same time he wanted to distance himself from it emotionally, didn’t want to react to it. The only time he would open up is when he was drunk. He just broke down, didn’t know how to deal with it. He just… didn’t deal with it. He didn’t know where to even begin to wrap his head around that kind of sh*t.
Was he trying to get help at this point?
At first, no. He said ‘yeah I have these issues, but there’s still that stigma about seeking help for PTSD in the army.’
How did he feel when he got his orders to deploy again?
[Laughing] You could say he was less than enthusiastic. He left a piece of him there, you know? And I think he really thought that going back he could just get back in the routine, and could go on being a zombie for the Army, but he figured out when he was there he was still feeling all the sh*t.
What was he like when you talked to him after he was sent home?
He was just totally depressed. It all got to him.
Did he express his frustration with the treatment he was getting?
Yeah, he said all they did was load him up with drugs.
What was your reaction when you heard that he had killed himself?
In all honestly, I was not surprised. I mean, Army mental health care is a joke. You pretty much go there, don’t even tell them anything, and they determine whatever category you’re in based on different factors and that’s the treatment you get. My brother got substandard treatment. The consistently dropped the ball.
Who do you think is responsible for your brother’s death?
This government! If he hadn’t been deployed, for no goddamn reason but corporate greed, he would still be here.
What do you think about Derrick being rated a “low risk” for suicide by the Army?
Not surprised, honestly. It’s just, you know, pretty much whatever they can do to save the government dollar on giving our soldiers actual health care. It just doesn’t work.
You tried to receive mental health counseling recently. What was your experience?
Well, I go try to talk to on-call social worker, because they say we can use them without fear of reprimand. I go there and said I’m just having a rough day, the day before had been my brother’s birthday. I wasn’t going because I was threatening to hurt myself or anything, I wanted to go because I was just feeling some pressure. When I get there, instead of sitting down and talking to somebody, there was just this revolving door of characters coming in, asking me three questions and leaving. By the time I actually talked to a psychiatrist, half the things I said were just all jumbled up. From there, the psychiatrist said they didn’t think I was suicidal, but because I fell into a certain category of 18-24 year old male they told me I could either commit myself or be emergency detained. I thought it was ridiculous and I didn’t want to stay, so the nurse tackled me and police detained me by force. Even though I’m not suicidal, I got emergency detained for it they locked me up over night against my will without any reason. The very first meeting I had with a psychiatrist she said “I don’t even know why you’re here.”
Did you even get the treatment you went for in the first place?
Not really. People came in and ask me questions, but as far as going to talk to someone and get some stuff out, no.
What did that teach you about VA mental heath care?
Don’t trust the VA health care! It was such a horrible experience that just made things worse, I’ll never go back.
So your brother was trying to kill himself and got denied care and given a room in the barracks alone, while you were not suicidal and just wanted basic counseling and they locked you up?
If anybody would have listened to my brother—within two weeks he tried to kill himself three times—it should have been painfully obvious that he should’ve been under observation. I’m normal, all the people there said they didn’t think I was in danger—but it all boils down to them just dishing out faceless care. We got opposite treatment because the doctors don’t even pay attention. Health care takes face time, you can’t just show up somewhere and treat people by checking boxes.
How do you think we can we change it?
We just need enough people. We all got to get our stories out there. As veterans we have to, as a whole, demand better treatment. We all have to band together. If we don’t want to fight these wars, we got to go on a general strike, and refuse. There’s nothing we can do but drastic stuff to change it. You know, that’s just the way it works. Sh*t isn’t going to change until we all put in what we have to into the pot.
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